Handling a brand new deck is strange. It looks different, it feels different, it *sounds* different. The edges feel different.. a little sharper, almost too new. The “woosh” sound is different as I shuffle them with my hands. I know that essentially it’s the same deck. It was made with the same love as before. But this feels so different to me.
I spent a lot of time working through these images to make them as awesome as possible.. “Animism 2.0” is just a little bit brighter, just a little bit warmer and though in reality, it’s just a very subtle change, it still feels like a brand new tarot. To me, it really is a brand new tarot.
It’s kind of funny, because while I’ve been working on improving this deck, I haven’t actually been using my own in a long time. Sometimes things happen and I find myself far away from using tarot. I didn’t feel like I was in the right mindset to come back to it. But now with this, this kind of new deck, I knew I wanted to start again. It’s like a new beginning.
I shuffled, and drew, and the Five of Wands is my very first card from my ‘new’ tarot. And while it was completely unexpected, it feels like it came when I needed it most. Talk about internal struggles. The tension, the fiery red, the feeling of urgency, it says a lot, and it forces you to think about what the next step needs to be. It’s a good wake-up call.
I’m as humble as they come, but damn it all, I love my ‘new’ deck. It’s back, and it’s beautiful, and I am in love.
The Animism Tarot is back and is now available @ Rainbowofcrazy.com.
It’s been a while since I worked on the Five of Wands. I remember it was one of the few that I worked on back in November when I was away to see my boyfriend. I had actually sketched out this tarot even way before that, but it ended up sitting around, waiting to be painted for the longest time. I don’t really remember why I didn’t work on it right away; maybe at the time I had doubts that I could make it awesome. Ironic, perhaps, since this tarot contains a lot of conflict in itself. But! I knew I had to face this challenge and this was the end result.
Sometimes so much is happening in a tarot image and I like paring it down a bit to fit with the feel that I wanted for this deck. And I do hope that all of the thought and planning that actually goes into these images shines through in the end. The Five of Wands is an example of one of these images. I ended up putting my outside forces actually outside of the image. They’re all closing in on my animal, which became the fiery wild boar. I chose the boar because I felt that this tarot needed an animal with that fight in it, ready to take charge with no hesitation. This is a tarot that I could definitely learn a thing or two from.